They call it a “Journey”

My healing journey began long before I knew that’s what it was. I did not know what I was looking for, or even what was wrong - it just FELT wrong. I always felt like I was being punished, but for what? Like, what could I have possibly done to feel so wrong, that I deserved the pain, that the judgment felt “earned,” that feeling good just didn’t feel natural.

Fast forward to 2025, and I am watching a video about how people have a “money container” - the amount of money they deserve to earn or keep. I think it was Jamie Sea, saying “ever realize no matter how hard you work, or how big the check, your bank account always looks the same?” Yeah, Jamie - I do realize that. But how do I fix it?

It’s the same lesson I have been working on for 30+ years - how do I love myself (just as I am, like right now)? How do I feel good about myself when all I can think of are all the things I have done wrong, messed up - through all my faults? And how do I feel that way emotionally - even as I know intellectually I do deserve health and abundance - why don’t I FEEL that way?

Good old nervous system regulation, and thoughts that have been implanted from a very young age - still? I am STILL fighting that battle after decades of talk therapy, plant medicine, hypnosis and all the books?!? Yep. And I still need to write about it. That book, that blog, the one I meant to write years ago - about how you can change your mind and love yourself and make decisions that will change everything?

Yes. It is now time. So here it is - not a book (yet) - maybe better to start with smaller bits. So, video, a few words - we’ll get to t-shirts and stickers and posters, too. It’s time to tell the story of my own healing journey - and then take you with me as I build my second life. I made my IT career happen - now what?